Friday, September 16, 2011

In Stasis


I have not written for a long time on this blog largely because I've been on an epic journey. It wasn't supposed to be an epic journey -- just a jaunt for a few weeks to visit my folks in Texas. But now we've been gone from Hungary since July 20th. And our adventure of military "space available" travel has taken us from Ramstein, Germany, through Trier, off to Washington State, on to Texas, to Delaware where we sought flights to Germany then moved on to Maryland, DC, Northern Virginia, then to New Jersey, only to return to Washington DC and wait for flights. The bottom line is that we cannot seem to get a flight back to Europe.

It is a time of much angst, aggravation, and frustration. And while we have been trapped in the USA, our car's registration (in Hungary) expired, the school year started without us, and our dog died.

Our lifestyle now is simply a series of fruitless, endless hours at airports up and down the eastern seaboard, waiting for the ever evasive flight we can never get a seat on. We feel helpless and sort of in a state of stasis -- a period of life when nothing seems productive and one just exists.

But I guess such periods in life are a natural part of the Christian life. I guess we tend to think the Christian life should be all about those periods of intense ministry or spiritual epiphanies. But those years that feel more like stasis are a real part of the Christian life. We are frustrated as we seem to just be spinning our wheels and going nowhere.

But if you, like me, have ever felt like you are in stasis, we are not alone. Consider the apostle Paul who spent about 14 "unknown" years of his Christian life doing nothing recorded before beginning ministry. Even Jesus himself did not rush into ministry at the moment he hit adulthood. He started at age 30.

Those periods of waiting are no fun, but that does not mean they are not productive.

Although enjoying friends' generosity and hospitality, I find myself in one of the places I really do not want to be. I want to be home. I need to be home. I want to serve God THERE! So why won't He let me go!

Because apparently I need to be here in stasis. And although it may feel like stasis, it really isn't. It is an opportunity for me to let God call the shots, even when it is incredibly inconvenient and periodically a bit uncomfortable for me.

It is an opportunity to say, "Yes, God," regardless of what He asks me to walk through. It is an opportunity to release control of my life, which I never really had control of anyhow.

And so we wait and try to catch a flight, again and again. I know someday we will get back, I'm sure. Until then it's time to make the most of the moment wherever I am and submit to His greater plan, knowing that -- however inconvenient, it is the best plan in the grand scheme.

6 comments:

Lidia said...

I thought of this seeing you being "trapped" there, but you are soooo much better in puttin these into words. :) Thank you. And hang on there....

Anonymous said...

Dear Trudy,

I am so glad to read this not that I am happy to hear of your plight but good to connect to the reality of it! You have been away nearly two months now. What an amazing maze God has you all in and yet He makes no mistakes. My prayer is that He bring you all back safely and soon, and that He grant you an abundance of grace and peace until that moment arrives! We are praying,

Patricia Varga/Budapest Hungary

Karla said...

HELP!!! My friend from Jr High is stuck in the US and needs airline miles or generous donations for airfare back to Hungary. Her family is involved in the missonary field and they came home to TX to visit family on July 20th. Her husband is retired from the military, so they fly on military aircraft free when space is available. Since he is retired, they get the lowest priority among all those seeking flights. That means all active duty and their families get seats ahead of them. Typically by this time of year, there are plenty of seats available. Not this year. More people are flying and the hurricane backlogged flights and there are fewer seats available. Plus, they cannot afford to buy tickets outright. So, they have been unable to get home!!! In addition, school has started for their 3 young children and their dog passed away while they've been waiting for a flight. Please help get this family home by generously donating your airline miles or by financial donation. Thank you! Facebook group - Chun Family Homecoming

Karla said...

HELP!!! My friend from Jr High is stuck in the US and needs airline miles or generous donations for airfare back to Hungary. Her family is involved in the missonary field and they came home to TX to visit family on July 20th. Her husband is retired from the military, so they fly on military aircraft free when space is available. Since he is retired, they get the lowest priority among all those seeking flights. That means all active duty and their families get seats ahead of them. Typically by this time of year, there are plenty of seats available. Not this year. More people are flying and the hurricane backlogged flights and there are fewer seats available. Plus, they cannot afford to buy tickets outright. So, they have been unable to get home!!! In addition, school has started for their 3 young children and their dog passed away while they've been waiting for a flight. Please help get this family home by generously donating your airline miles or by financial donation. Thank you! join us on www.facebook.com group name: Chun Family Homecoming

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taniad1992 said...

Such a Godly perspective on things Trudy! Thanks for sharing this!